A Rich Reward

I know that I’ve been blessed beyond belief. I realize that I’ve achieved the dream many women with endometriosis are unable to. I’m one of the fortunate ones who has been able to have children. I try to not take that for granted, I try every day to love my kids to the best of my ability and cherish every moment with them.

From around the age of 8 I knew I wanted to be a mum, like most 11 or 12-year-old girls I was blessed with a cabbage patch doll. Her name was June and I was able to practice my mothering skills. I never imagined that a normal part of womanhood would turn into something so hideously cruel. As if the pain and debilitation wasn’t enough the disease threatened to take away my motherhood dreams. One of my earliest diagnosis was that it would be difficult for me to have children and if I did want them I’d need to have them sooner rather than later. Fortunately, I was in a committed relationship so we decided to fast track our plans of marriage, but having kids was still only a thought. At 21 I married my sweetheart.

3 years later we found ourselves at a crossroads, the options were to travel overseas, a dream we had been having for a while, or to try for kids. My health wasn’t great so we knew that we had to act pretty quickly if we were going to hopefully have kids. We sought extensive prayer and surprisingly I fell pregnant much quicker than expected, we were both ecstatic! Unfortunately, I suffered a miscarriage and subsequently my body went ‘haywire’ for months afterwards. My hormones were all over the place and I was just a total mess. Life seemed way too hard and heartbreaking!

As the months dragged on my specialist suggested hormones to reset my body. After one of my scheduled blood tests we got surprising news – I was pregnant! It was really early therefore the Dr wanted to wait a couple of weeks and complete an ultrasound to confirm things were going as they should. Those 2 weeks dragged on and I was so nervous. But great NEWS a nice strong heartbeat was heard!

I was pregnant, the thing I desperately wanted, and I was miserable. I felt so guilty that I couldn’t enjoy it! Physically I was constantly light headed as I had low blood pressure, I felt nauseous, weak, exhausted and highly emotional. I felt totally ripped off! I wanted so badly to be that ‘glowing person’ you hear about, to be floating on a cloud of pure euphoria and joy. I should have been celebrating such a rich reward BUT I I was miserable and grouchy! Friends around us were going overseas or buying new cars or buying new houses as their last big splurge before the baby. I was jealous.

One particularly bad day was when we heard from our friends in Ireland who wanted us to go visit. I simply wasn’t well enough. I was livid. I went to church with a dark cloud of ‘woe is me’ hanging over my head. That day we had a visiting retired missionary lady, she spoke of the great work that her and her husband had accomplished overseas, the amazing places they had been fortunate to visit and all the good they had achieved. She was happy with how her life had turned out, but she said, now being of a very elderly age, she was desperately sad that she was never able to have a family. Her words literally took the breath out of my lungs! I was almost struck to the floor. God clearly reminded me that the world can wait, the opportunity to travel will come at the right time and all the other material things I was desiring are meaningless in comparison to the gift of a child!  I’m sad and ashamed to say that this was only one of the numerous times God had to remind me how privileged I am to be called “mum”.

Another reminder when we went to Melbourne to visit family and friends with a very young child. I was still adjusting to this whole motherhood thing. The friends that we stayed with didn’t have kids so had planned the weekend not really thinking about a young baby being in the mix. One afternoon the plan was for the boys to go off while the girls went to the beach, I hadn’t packed suitable beach gear for our son so I declined. That left me alone for quite a few hours, not the weekend getaway I had imagined. Our son was unsettled, maybe from the travel, so it was a difficult afternoon. I should have been celebrating such a rich reward BUT I was feeling very frustrated! In sheer desperation I put our son down for around the 20th time and took my bible out to the lounge room. I cried. I cried out to God and started searching for encouraging words.

I was drawn to Psalm 127: “Children are a gift from the LORD; they are a reward from him. Children born to a young man are like arrows in a warrior’s hands. How joyful is the man whose quiver is full of them! He will not be put to shame when he confronts his accusers at the city gates.” Psalm 127:3-5 NLT

Those words cut through my frustration and annoyance! New words suddenly whirled through my head: A gift! A blessing! An inheritance! A rich reward! How joyful!

I wasn’t instantly transformed into super mum but God did start to transform me into the mum I needed to be. But I’ve discovered it’s a continual process. Kids change, develop and grow. Their needs change. What I need to do to assist them changes. It’s the world’s toughest job but I cherish it as the greatest job I’ll ever do.

Today my gorgeous son turns 17! As I attempt to usher him (and his younger sister) into adulthood I’m desperate for God’s empowering more than ever. As I continue to press in for my restoration I need strength more than ever to be the mum I need to be for them.

My family is such a source of pure joy and I’m so grateful God has blessed me with their company.

I love them so much!

Many blessings, Keona

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will my small effort really make any difference?

It’s hard to know what to do when I see overwhelming problems surrounding me. It’s difficult to know what to do when the problem is so huge! Often I wonder: how can I help? what is it that I can do to change things? will my small effort really make any difference?

Edmund Burke makes a challenging statement: “The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing.”. If I’ve noticed a situation that needs addressing, if something is brought to my attention, I cannot ignore it or simply assume someone else will do something. The first thing I need to do is pray because. I need wisdom and guidance about what my response should be. That helps me answer my first question – how can I help?

Then I seek God for the ability to outwork His response for me. This is how I deal with the question: what is it that I can do to change things?

The question: will my small effort really make any difference? The answer is that I believe my small effort can become huge when combined with God’s great victory. I need to be faithful in how I’m called to respond and trust God.

I love this following statement by The Passion Translation:

Our greatest gift – new life in Christ.

Our greatest treasure – the Word of God.

Our greatest resource – the Holy Spirit.

Our greatest weapon – prayer.

Jesus came so that all could live a life of abundance – John 10:10. Being a Christian means that I can be a voice for the downtrodden and the forgotten. I can be an advocate for the poor. Jesus came that ALL may be saved look at this wonderful challenge found in 1 Timothy 2:1-6:

“I urge you, first of all, to pray for all people. Ask God to help them; intercede on their behalf, and give thanks for them. Pray this way for kings and all who are in authority so that we can live peaceful and quiet lives marked by godliness and dignity. This is good and pleases God our Savior, who wants everyone to be saved and to understand the truth. For, there is one God and one Mediator who can reconcile God and humanity—the man Christ Jesus. He gave his life to purchase freedom for everyone. This is the message God gave to the world at just the right time.”

The Amplified version urges us to present to God our specific requests.

Will my small effort really make any difference? Most definitely! Look at these words that have lasted the test of time to become my hearts cry:

My hope is built on nothing less than Jesus’ blood and righteousness; I dare not trust the sweetest frame, but wholly lean on Jesus’ name.

On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand; all other ground is sinking sand.

When darkness veils His lovely face, I rest on His unchanging grace; in every high and stormy gale my anchor holds within the veil.

On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand; all other ground is sinking sand.

His oath, His covenant, and blood support me in the whelming flood; when every earthly prop gives way, He then is all my Hope and Stay.

On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand; all other ground is sinking sand.

When He shall come with trumpet sound, oh, may I then in Him be found, clothed in His righteousness alone, faultless to stand before the throne!

On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand; all other ground is sinking sand.

“My Hope is Built on Nothing Less” by Edward Mote, 1797-1874

My voice can be added to 10 others, that 10 others can grow to a 100 and 100 can grow to 1,000. My small voice can join others to become a roar that cannot be ignored. Join our voice with the One who cannot be denied, the One who is above all others, the One whose glory shines brighter than the sun – Jesus and we become unstoppable!

My thoughts and prayers are with those struggling to deal with unspeakable tragedy and those trying to overcome overwhelming situations.

I pray that the small effort I make to impact the lives around me can make a difference.

Keep pressing on! Many blessings, Keona

Norton Hall Band – “My Hope Is Built” – YouTube video

Pcture Cred: Tom und Nicki Löschner

Prophetic Picture

I’m currently reading Ryan LeStrange’s new book ‘Supernatural Access’ and it’s amazing! It has so much wisdom oozing from the pages and I love how he finishes each chapter with a prayer, prophecy and activation. In chapter 3 titled ‘Steward the Voice’ he discusses prophetic images and the activation at the end of the chapter is to find a prophetic picture. As soon as I started reading I was reminded of a dream that I’d had recently, I was walking across ice when I fell through. As I sunk down I didn’t feel panic at all. I declared ‘I dive deep into You Lord. I immerse myself in You.’. In my dream the sensations were so strong, I could feel the cold ice but when I fell through the water was warm and I could feel my body sinking. I remember waking and almost expecting to be in water because it felt that real.

I wanted to find a picture that conveyed that sinking feeling and after a search on Pixabay I found it, posted by the user: Free-Photos. I also wanted to create a prayer using verses:

Lord I want to completely immerse myself in You!

How I cry out to know the vast rich depths

of the wisdom and knowledge of God!

(Inspired by Romans 11:33)

I pray that the God of my precious Saviour,

my Lord Jesus Christ; the Father of glory,

grants me a spirit of wisdom and of revelation.

That I may gain a deeply personal

and intimate insight into the true knowledge of God

as I come to know the Father through the Son.

(Inspired by Ephesians 1:17)

Having this picture and words as a visual reminder has really helped me to focus my days upon delving deep into God.

If you’ve had a recent vivid dream why not try find your own picture and words to express it? If you haven’t started a dream diary then please do, I’m so grateful that I wrote down all the details of mine while they were still vivid and fresh.

Many blessings, Keona

Let’s Celebrate! 

Today is my birthday! I’m terribly excited for lots of reasons:

  • It’s a public holiday so all of Hobart gets to celebrate with me
  • I’ll have family hanging out with me
  • My in-laws are visiting from South Australia
  • I’m pretty sure my gorgeous hubby with spoil me with food or dinner out (he usually does).

As I contemplate this birthday I’m truly pleased to be here. I reflect back on my 40th birthday and just how miserable I felt. The birthday just after that I was also quite unwell. Last year I was only just starting to feel better so it’s such a blessing to be able to feel excited about life again. To have hope back in my heart is a miracle.

When I think about the picture of me I could point out all the flaws: I’ve got no makeup on; I’m still carrying excess weight and I didn’t really do my hair (it’s been coloured but not styled just wind blown)…I could go on and on. BUT guess what?!  I’m ok with it. I’m learning to embrace the true me, the real me, the no-need-to-worry-about-such-silly-things me. When I was first unwell any makeup irritated my skin and a friend made a comment about me not wearing makeup and how haggard I looked. I was taken aback and quite hurt as I was feeling vulnerable anyway.
I can now cope with makeup for short periods of time but I’m also loving the freedom of not having to feel the need to put makeup on. I’m developing my inner beauty and I hope that it shines through brighter than any glossy makeup. I’m holding onto the promise that I’m progressively being transformed from glory to glory to become more like Jesus – 2 Corinthians 3:18.

I’m gaining my true identity back as I press into God and hold onto promises such as:

“Wherever I go Your hand will guide me,
Your strength will empower me.
It’s impossible to disappear from You,
Or to ask the darkness to hide me
For Your presence is everywhere
Bringing light into my night!
There is no such thing as “darkness” with You.
The night, to You, is as bright as the day;
There’s no difference between the two!
You formed my innermost being,
Shaping my delicate “inside”
And my intricate “outside,”
And wove them all together in my mother’s womb.
I thank You God, for making me so mysteriously complex!
Everything you do is marvelously breathtaking!
It simply amazes me to think about it!
How thoroughly you know me, Lord!
You even formed every bone in my body,
When You created me in the secret place;
Carefully, skillfully shaping me
From nothing to something!
You saw who You created me to be,
Before I became me!
Before I’d ever seen the light of day,
The number of days You planned for me,
Were already recorded in Your book.
Every single moment You are thinking of me!
How precious and wonderful to consider,
That You cherish me constantly in Your every thought!
O God, Your desires toward me are more
Than the grains of sand on every shore!
When I awake each morning
You’re still thinking of me.” Psalm 139:10-18 The Passion Translation

“I have set My seal over your heart and now I display you to the world as My very own, My masterpiece of love. Can you not see what My love has done throughout your life? Do not look upon your failures and your pain, for in My presence they do not exist. I have placed My glory over your life and call you, My Radiant One!” An extract from I hear Him whisper…”We are one”.

Thanks for celebrating with me. I hope you have a wonderful day. It’s time for me to go celebrate.
Many blessings,
Keona

What A Beautiful Name – Hillsong Worship – YouTube Video

In Jesus’ Name – Darlene Zschech – YouTube lyrics video

Trust The Process

As you’ve probably guessed by now I’m going through an intense process. I’m feeling pretty vulnerable and overwhelmed a lot of the time. This week I felt as if I’d hit yet another nasty bump in the road and I even doubted being able to write this. It felt as if the stumble turned into me hitting my head on the roadblock and I was ‘down for the count’ wondering if I had the strength to get back up again!

Every time I think I’m over the worst I have another bad day. Every time I think I can’t deal with this I’m forced to deal with more! Tuesday I pushed myself to make tea so that I could try to bless my family with food, but the effort left me utterly spent and unable to talk as I feared I would simply collapse into a bubbling mess. I felt like such a failure.

9 days ago I reflected upon the Israelites in the desert, in Psalm 78:13-16 it details what God did for His people: He released them from slavery and oppression; He parted the Red Sea; He fed them with manna straight from Heaven (“It was white like coriander seed, and it tasted like honey wafers.” Exodus‬ ‭16:31‬b NLT‬‬); they followed a cloud of glory during the day and a pillar of fire at night; when there was no water God split open rocks which then became gushing springs; they were walking towards the Promise Land – a land flowing with glorious abundance.

Think about it! Really think about it. How wonderful would it be to have a cloud guiding you forward! How incredible would a pillar of fire be!

BUT despite all of these amazing things, the things that we desperately long to see, the people kept sinning. Even though signs and wonders were happening all around them they were still refusing to trust! (Psalm 78:32). 

As I pondered on that I was left wondering how that could possibly be. I think I know somewhat of what they were feeling. I think I’m there now.

I think it’s the fact that they wanted the promise land but they didn’t want the journey. Like me I want restoration and I want the future to unfold and when do I want it? NOW! I don’t want to wait, I don’t want the pain, I don’t want to have to uncover all my deep hurts, I don’t want to have to spend hour after hour on the computer writing and trying to make sense out of my 2342 drafts! But I need to wait, for God is doing a HUGE work that takes time! I need to allow God to deal with the stuff from my past so that I no longer carry it around. I need to write because I need to be a good steward with the words God has entrusted me with!

Desiring signs and wonders along with miracles is not a bad thing, we are encouraged by God to look for them, but it becomes dangerous ground when we say we desire them more than God and even more dangerous when we say something like “well if I don’t get a sign and wonder then I’ll just give up on God.”. That kind of thinking would grieve His heart. It would be like you saying to someone you love ‘I’ll only stay in relationship with you if you do this…..’. What you’re saying is: I no longer love you for who you are, I only love you for what you can do for me.

It hurts to write this because I’ve been that kinda person, I sought healing over a relationship. I started to race ahead in Ministry before being trained.

I realise now that my relationship with God is far more important than seeing His signs and wonders.

What do I want right now more than anything? Do I want God or what He can do for me? What if signs and wonders never come, does that change God? What if they do come but I’m so distracted I miss them? What if they do come but I’m not prepared to receive?

I believe God can and will do amazing things in my life but I need to focus on my relationship with Him so that I’m positioned to receive. I don’t want to be in the wrong place and miss it.

“Sometimes God gives us what we think we don’t want. Often He allows things to happen that we didn’t plan for and we may feel as if we’re missing out on the life we wanted. But God has made it clear that He’s given us everything we need and more to live out the life that He has for us. He is writing a story that is better than one we could imagine for ourselves, and our part is simply choosing to trust Him with the next thing.” Chrystal Evans Hurst

This week yet again it’s been hard for me to trust the process. The immediate circumstances have drowned out the big picture stuff. As I got bogged down in the now the soon seemed too far away and way too difficult to achieve!

But guess what? God has strengthened me to write, where I felt there was no way He made a way!

So I pray that this encourages you to trust the process, to know that God has begun a great work in your life that will continue until the day when Christ Jesus returns – Philippians 1:6.

Many blessings, Keona

Note: The full story of deliverance can be found in Exodus 13 and their journey is detailed through the next few chapters.

Pixabay picture link

Unstoppable God – Elevation Worship – YouTube clip

 

The Cards Life Deals You

I’ve been very fortunate to have a family that has invested in me. Many holidays and weekends were spent growing up in the central highlands of Tasmania. Here in our gorgeous cosy shack we would spend endless hours playing cards. My grandparents were patient teachers who loved playing non-stop!

I look back on those moments and cherish them deeply.

My daughter and I have recently been playing cards on a weekly basis and it’s been so much fun! I’m loving it. It transports me back to those times at the shack. It makes me smile that I’m passing down that love of card playing. It makes me laugh at how competitive she is – she definitely has the Stephens’ blood in her veins (just to explain that’s my maiden name). We were out playing recently and an elderly gentleman commented that I must be Sarah’s sister (my 15-year-old daughter) as I was being so immature. Maybe so that I wouldn’t be offended he went on to comment that all people seem to be so immature these days. My daughter and I laughed long and hard for days afterwards. Should I be offended? Maybe but I choose not to be! I am so grateful that I can laugh, joke and muck around with my family. I am so grateful that God has given me a new ‘lease on life’. That the old miserable, sick, unable-to-do-much-at-all person is slowly fading into my past.

As I reflect on all the cards games I’ve played in my life I’ve noticed that there are many similarities to my ‘wilderness’ season. Sickness is definitely like a bad hand of cards and many times I wanted to just fold! How nice would it have been to just ask for another hand and have it all disappear in an instant! My healing brought many dramatic and instant changes to my life but I’m still a long way from 100%. At first I believed that maybe I didn’t have enough faith to be completely healed and so I questioned what was happening. But after some searching and researching I began to receive a real sense of peace. I believe that I am right where I need to be. I believe that God is doing a great and complete work in my life and there is NO need to rush it.

There is a wonderful promise that I cling to in Philippians 1:6 “…I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.”

I’m so grateful that God promises to continually keep working in my life.  I cried out and found the ‘ace’ to be able to change the course of my ‘card game’ because Jesus is the greatest ‘trump card’ I’ll ever find!. Although I’m not there yet I can cling to and continue to know restoration IS taking place. The promises yet to be fulfilled are coming.

“It’s not about the cards you’re dealt, but how you play the hand.” Randy Pausch

So I pray that I will play the hand that God is giving me with all the grace, wisdom and strength I need.

“…enduring faith and preserving prayers shape the life of the pray-ers until we are formed into the kind of vessel that wouldn’t be destroyed by the answer. ..persistence in prayer shapes us and matures us to receive what God has for us.” Bill Johnson

If you’re struggling with issues right now I pray that you can find the strength to pour it all out to God, for I know He is ready and waiting.

Many blessings, Keona

‘Peace Be Still’ by The Belonging Co feat Lauren Daigle with lyrics YouTube video

Powerful Effective Daily Reminders

As I’ve pushed into God for my healing to manifest, I’ve desperately sought for restoration and transformation. During those months, I found so many things that encourage me but the 4 things that have dramatically been effective are:

Powerful Protection 

I pray Ephesians 6:10-18 over myself each day. I am strong in the Lord when I proudly wear the armour of God:

  • Helmet of salvation – thank you Lord for the precious gift of salvation! Jesus dress me in your thoughts, grant me the ability to capture my thoughts and allow you Lord to dispel the wrong thoughts. Open my eyes to see what you want me to see, open my ears to hear what you want me to hear and place a guard upon my tongue so that only words of truth and life spring forth.
  • Breastplate of righteousness – because of Jesus’ great sacrifice I have been made right with God. This breastplate protects my willing, courageous and bold heart! God create a new heart and renew a steadfast spirit within me (Psalm 51). Help me to have a tender responsive heart, full of Your compassion and grace (Ezekiel 11:19).
  • Belt of truth – thank you Lord for Your perfect truth in my life. Seep Your glorious promises deep into every fibre of my being!
  • Shoes of peace – which come from the Good News and enables me to be fully prepared. Flood me with a peace that transcends my own understanding and guards my heart and mind (Philippians 4:6-7). I absorb God’s peace into every cell of my body.
  • Shield of faith – I praise you Lord that you enable me to quench every fiery arrow from the enemy. Grant me discernment like never before to enter into the spiritual battle around me.
  • Sword of the Spirit – thank you God for Your living active word! Lord I ask that You enable me to wield Your words wisely.

With this armour on I can pray unceasingly in all situations and God strengthens me to keep fighting the good fight!

I ask God to surround me with His comfort and protection. I pray that God’s light will shine bright in me.

I ask for great wisdom to reveal God’s peace in confusing conversations and situations. I declare that I am a glorious masterpiece: “For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.” Ephesians 2:10 NLT. I pray that I will allow God to flow through me.

Alignment Through Identity

When I embrace the fact that I am fearfully and wonderfully made I can discover how God has created me and for what purpose. I love this version of Psalm 139:

“Lord, you know everything there is to know about me. You’ve examined my innermost being with your loving gaze. You perceive every movement of my heart and soul, and understand my every thought before it even enters my mind. You are so intimately aware of me, Lord, you read my heart like an open book and you know all the words I’m about to speak before I even start a sentence! You know every step I will take, before my journey even begins! You’ve gone into my future to prepare the way, and in kindness you follow behind me to spare me from the harm of my past. With your hand of love upon my life, you impart a Father’s blessing to me. This is just too wonderful, deep, and incomprehensible! Your understanding of me brings me wonder and strength.” Psalm 139:1-6 The Passion Translation

4 daily reminders to declare:

  1. I am fearfully and wonderfully made – Psalm 139:14
  2. No longer do I live but Christ lives in me – Galatians 2:20
  3. The very same spirit that raised Jesus from the dead resides in me which gives me life – Romans 8:11
  4. Nothing can ever separate me from the love of God – Romans 8:38-39

I need to declare these even when I doubt with every fibre of my being; even when the situation feels as if I’m distant from God; for when I’m weak and failing is when I need to declare these truths – and declare them loudly!. I believe that God’s truth is important to declare each and every day.

When you speak out of your identity in Me, the surging power of My Spirit will lift you high and you will soar above the pain of the moment and the pressure of the test. I am your true Identity. Find your pleasure in My and I will pour My power into you. An extract from        ‘I hear Him whisper…I am your identity’ by The Passion Translation

Transformation By The Word of God

Sometimes it takes me reading a verse over and over for months and months before it comes alive but when it does it is life altering! One of my favourite at the moment:

⁷God’s Word is perfect in every way, how it revives my soul! His laws lead me to truth, and His ways make me wise! ⁸His teachings make me joyful and I radiate His light, His precepts are so pure! His commands, how they challenge me to keep close to His heart! The revelation-light of His Word makes my spirit shine radiant! ¹ᴼThe rarest treasures of life are found in His truth. That’s why I prize God’s Word like others prize the finest gold. Nothing brings the soul such sweetness as seeking His living words. Psalm 19:7-8 & 10 The Passion Translation paraphrased

When God’s Word becomes first place in your life, there isn’t a problem you’re facing that can’t be solved by faith. Faith is the victory that overcomes the world. There is no weapon formed against you that can prosper (Isaiah 54:17) when you are believing God. You plus God makes a majority. Andrew Wommack

Reckless Worship 

My previous understanding about worship was that I had to be in a place where life felt good so that I could worship.

But I’ve been challenged to worship in the midst of horrendous moments. I didn’t understand at first why or how that would make a difference but I’ve seen how impacting it is! It certainly hasn’t been easy but I know that when I’m feeling low is when I need to sing louder. When I choose to worship God in the terrible/horrible/painful times I’m inviting Him into those moments and He breaks the oppression. I may need to sing songs such as ‘The Desert’ or ‘Even When It Hurts’ – songs that acknowledge it’s tough but also that God is good.

I’ve seen the evidence of how effective worship-despite-the-horror-around-me is!

When your spirit is pressed beyond measure so that you can hardly breathe, pray if you are able to, and praise when you’re not able to pray. Watchman Nee

I read Acts 16 – the story of Paul and Silas who had been beaten and thrown in prison. Around midnight they began to pray and sing hymns to God. Their situation was miserable but they chose to worship God in that terrible place! Why? Because they knew that God is good ALL the time! Their praise stirred God’s heart to such a point that a massive earthquake occurred and the prison was shaken to its foundations. All the doors immediately flew open, and the chains of every prisoner fell off!

As I read this a great desire grew within me – I asked that God would arise within me such a heart of worship! That the Lord would shake all the foundations within me that are false, because God is the rock upon which I stand.

Worship breaks the ‘woe is me’ cycle in my life.

I lift my eyes to God and acknowledge that He is good, faithful and with me – despite every fibre of my body screaming something different and the situation surrounding me trying to suffocate me!

As I worship I’m reminded that God is Immanuel – with me in all things!

As I worship I take my eyes off the things that are stressing me out and fix my eyes on Jesus – the one who has the victory!

As I worship I invite the Holy Spirit to commune with me, to move through me and take each and every burden!

As I worship I remind myself that God is good, faithful, true and full of grace.

As I worship I’m once again filled with awe and wonder.

As I worship God’s majesty reigns and I am forever changed!

As I worship I choose to allow gratitude to change my attitude.

Become aware of Him. Turn your attention from every other nagging situation, and just focus on the One who loves you most. It will change your perspective on everything. #noagenda #justadoration #Godisgood Bill Johnson

When I worship I press in for the Spirit of the Lord to come and rest on me afresh. I desire for God to fill me with the Spirit of wisdom and understanding; the Spirit of counsel and strength; the Spirit of knowledge, reverence, obedience and fear of the Lord. To take delight in the fear of the Lord, for then I will no longer judge what’s happening around me by what my eyes see, or make decisions by what my ears hear. As promised in Isaiah 11:2-3

Faith has its anchor in the unseen realm. It lives from the invisible toward the visible. Faith actualizes what it realizes. The Scriptures contrast the life of faith with the limitations of natural sight. Faith provides eyes for the heart. Bill Johnson see full devotion at 1Soul1Nation.

God I present my case to You,
I lay all my burdens and my dreams at Your feet.
God I believe You are a miracle working God.
You perform great and mighty things that are simply too marvellous to understand.
The great I AM performs countless miracles.
inspired by Job 5:8-9

I pray that this has encouraged and inspired you.

Blessings, Keona

Desert Song – Hillsong Worship – YouTube clip with lyrics

Even When It Hurts – Hillsong UNITED – YouTube lyrics video

Come To The River – Housefires – YouTube lyrics video

Majesty – Michael W. Smith – YouTube lyrics video

What A Beautiful Name – Hillsong – YouTube lyrics video

I Exalt Thee – Jesus Culture – YouTube lyrics video

Spirit Of The Living God – Vertical Church Band – YouTube lyrics video

 

A New Kinda Dangerous

When I first learnt to drive I was pretty dangerous. One of my funniest memories is me being stuck on top of a traffic island wondering 2 things: how did I possibly manage that and how do I get off? As the cars drove past me and the people inside laughed I felt so embarrassed. My level-headed sister kindly suggested I could simply drive off, when safe, and continue. I drove off and parked the car as I refused to drive any further. A few professional lessons later I was more confident and THANKFULLY a safer driver.

In 2008 I was fortunate to go on my first overseas trip. My husband had a conference to attend in New Zealand and I decided he simply couldn’t go on his own. For 10 glorious days I enjoyed the beautiful South Island. For the first few days we were in Christchurch and while hubby attended workshops I spent the days exploring, shopping or relaxing. I even managed to complete a 3-hour horse trek which was stunning. Hubby and I stayed on after the conference and travelled south to explore and enjoy as much as we could. I has stated that when in NZ I just HAD to bungy jump. For months and months I told as many people as I could about my exciting trip and how I was going to bungy jump. I was met with loads of “oh really? Isn’t that dangerous?” as well as some “oh that sounds exciting”. My parents were looking after our kids so I’m not sure if they were very happy with us committing to dangling 400m above Queenstown on a few pieces of elastic, but bless them they didn’t protest too much! The experience was terrifying. The staff were amazing and I am glad I did it but I didn’t catch the ‘bungy bug’, I’m confident that once is enough! I may consider the sky swing again……..maybe.

As I face a new direction in life I am thinking that I want to explore a whole new kinda dangerous:

“Jesus came to make us dangerous to the kingdom of darkness. The light within us is greater than the darkness around us.” Christine Caine

How exciting will it be to become dangerous enough to deliver people from darkness!
How incredible it will be. What a privilege it will be to be living out the great commission and serving Jesus. That’s what my heart longs for now.

God has entrusted me to be a child of light, because Jesus Christ is my Saviour I am no longer held by the powers of darkness – 1 Thessalonians 5:5

I need to embrace that glorious truth and walk as a child of Light – Ephesians 5:8

“Nothing strikes as much fear into the heart of the enemy’s camp as when you close your eyes and come BOLDLY before God’s throne. When you pray, you are DANGEROUS to the DARKNESS.” Lisa Bevere

That’s the danger I’m now pursuing – a whole new kinda dangerous!

I pray that you can discover the boldness to step forth into all God has called you to.

Many blessings, Keona

This is Living – Hillsong Young & Free – YouTube Lyric Video

Crazy Faith – John Waller – YouTube Lyric Video

Trusting God Completely

I sit here in the relative quiet, in absolute surrender before God.

I wait as long as it takes for Him to finish the good work He has begun in my life.

For God alone is my Saviour, the One I love and I know He will not fail me!

God alone is my safe place and His wrap-around presence protects me, for He is my Champion Defender.

I am assured that there is no risk of failure with God! Even though worry tries to paralyse me with fear I am assured that God’s glory is all around me!

His wrap-around presence is all I need, for the Lord my Saviour is my Hero and life-giving strength. So I place every moment into His capable hands, trusting Him completely.

I know I can safely pour out all my troubles and heart-longings to Him. For I know my God will hear me and help me!

Inspired by Psalm 62:5-8 The Passion Translation

‘I Am Yours’ -Lauren Daigle- YouTube Clip with lyrics

‘Nearness’ – Jenn Johnson – YouTube link

Come My Beloved

As I looked at this picture I heard God whisper:

‘Come out of your hiding place

Come sit by My still water of life

Come out of the shadows

Come My beloved

Come bask in the warmth of My light

Come out from the heavy blanket of grief

Come feel My love embrace you with joy

Come My beloved

Come and allow Me to heal your wounds

Come and see Me transform you anew

Come, please come My beloved!

Come My beloved

Come lay down that burden and allow Me to carry the load

Come sit with Me and just chat for awhile

Come and sleep in the sun

Come My beloved

Come and be refreshed

Come, it’s safe now to leave your place of refuge

Come step out into the open unafraid, for I’m right here by your side –

this is where I’ve always been and where I’ll forever be

Come My beloved

Beloved, search for the name I have for you
Chosen one, know the love I store in My heart only for you
Child, receive the great inheritance I bestow upon you
Special one, embrace all that I call you to

Come My beloved for I’m waiting for you!

Beautiful creation, once you’ve sat with Me for awhile

you will go forth unafraid, fully knowing that I am with you

so come, please come My beloved!’

Picture cred

My Soul Pants for the Lord – YouTube clip

A Refreshing Waterfall – YouTube clip

Carry Me -Rita Springer – YouTube clip