A True Supporter

The past 3 years have been truly horrendous, confronting, frustrating, confusing….. I’ve desperately searched for true supporters – people who can:

  • meet me where I’m at
  • acknowledge what’s happening
  • help me to try and make sense of things
  • address or help me let go of the burdens
  • reveal strategies forward
  • provide prayerful support
  • stick with me to see the victory come to pass

Recently I’ve had events that have rocked me. I had 2 confusing and hurtful interactions with medical professionals. After the first event, I felt the shock starting to set in and I stood on the pavement and declared: “God that door has slammed in my face, BUT I trust that You’ve closed that door for a reason and so once again I’ll place my trust in You!”.

As I processed that incident another one, less than a week later, had me in a state of despair feeling ‘attacked’ for no reason! I felt ‘kicked’ when I was ‘down for the count’!

I am so grateful for a loving constantly supportive husband and family who have stood by me and helped me so much. BUT the weeks after those incidents I’ve been unable to connect face to face with my 2 sources of group prayer support. As I struggled with the feelings of isolation and loneliness I delved into the study of Jehovah Nissi.

This description of God is found in Exodus 17: The Israelites were under attack by warriors of Amalek. Moses commanded Joshua to go and fight them, promising that he would stand on top of the hill holding the staff of God in his hand. When Moses had his arms raised the Israelites had the advantage but whenever he dropped his hand the Amalekites gained the advantage. As the battle raged on poor Moses grew exhausted. Aaron and Hur came along and sat Moses on a stone and then stood each side of him to hold up his arms. This enabled them to endure until sunset. The result was that Joshua and the Israelites were victorious. To mark this event “Moses built an altar there and named it Yahweh-Nissi (which means “the Lord is my banner”).” Exodus 17:15 NLT

What a powerful testimony of partnership with God as well as others. This study has reminded me that God is mighty! God is by my side. As I wrote this a deep realisation sunk into my soul that GOD IS MY TRUE SUPPORTER – He is the One who has been there through it all.

God’s banner of love; mercy; grace; healing; restoration; transformation; and victory is over me!

God is calling me forth unafraid for He will strengthen me for the battle.

God is calling me to be bold because He is so much bigger than my current circumstances.

Jesus’ extravagant sacrifice for me started on the cross and then extended to my salvation and my healing. So I shouldn’t be surprised when it extends to the promised victory!

For I’m promised that in the days to come “….no weapon turned against you will succeed. You will silence every voice raised up to accuse you. These benefits are enjoyed by the servants of the Lord; their vindication will come from me. I, the Lord, have spoken!” Isaiah 54:17 NLT

How cool is that!!

My prayer: So right now Lord I ask for forgiveness over my unbelief! Grow my faith. I’ve prayed so many wonderful promises, now I move my heart to receive them as REALITY. I declare Your banner over me IS love; grace; mercy; victory; and provision! Lord I breathe into reality Your promises for me! I step out in faith towards ALL You call me to!!! All Your promises ARE YES and AMEN. Lord let Your will be done!

“May God give you every desire of your heart and carry out your every plan as you go into battle. When you succeed, we will celebrate and shout for joy. Flags will fly when victory is yours! Yes, God will answer your prayers and we will praise Him!” Psalms 20:4-5 The Passion Translation

Many blessings!

‘God of the Angel Armies’ – Jonathan David & Melissa Helser – YouTube clip

‘Whom Shall I Fear’ [God of Angel Armies] – Chris Tomlin – YouTube lyrics clip

‘OVERFLOW’ – Official Planetshakers – YouTube Music Video

‘The Stand’ – Hillsong United – YouTube subtitled lyrics clip

Picture Cred: freestockpro.com


Lord Hear My Cry

I feel like a candle spluttering to stay alight
Lord I desperately want to shine like a beacon of hope
Lord I need You to light my heart
Lord I need You to reignite my spirit
Lord I need You to clarify my mind
Lord I need You
Lord I need You desperately

Who else can I possibly turn to?
No human heart can understand
My own heart cannot contain this anguish

The grief and the sorrow gnaw at my bones
Lord I’m so desperate
I need to hear Your voice
I need to know You’re here

My heart beats faintly in hope, but the pain suffocates each beat

Lord who else can I trust but You?!

You’ve promised to be my tower of strength

You’ve promised to be my safe refuge

You’ve promised me…….

You’ve promised…….

Your Word declares that You’re faithful, steadfast and true

So come now and quickly rescue me!

Lord I fear I will lay wasted on the battleground

Lord I fear that I’ve cried out in vain

Lord I fear

I fear

I fear

But You’ve promised that Your perfect love will drive out ALL fear

But You’ve promised me that if I resist the devil he will flee

What more can I say?

What more can I do?

What more is there to face?

Lord You’ve promised to cast out ALL loneliness so why do I feel so alone?

Lord You’ve promised me…….

You’ve promised…….

You’ve promised me so many things and I dare to believe that they are true

I refuse to accept that Your promises are false!

Lord You’ve said You would shelter me with Your wings

Lord my faith is weak but You’ve promised that even the smallest amount of faith can move mountains

So Lord move my mountain and cast it into the sea!

Lord restore to me Your joy

Lord restore to me Your favour

Lord restore to me health

Lord restore to me my precious inheritance

Lord will You hear my cries for mercy?

Lord will You run right now to catch me?

Lord I’m so broken, can You mend me?

Lord I’m so empty, can You fill me?

Lord this wasteland is simply too harsh

Lord this winter season is simply too barren

Lord why do I see springs of promises to have them snatched from my grasp?

Lord why do I feel like this?

Is there something I have not repented of? Then I am sorry

Lord is there some part of my heart that I have held back from You? Here it is take it all – it’s weak and failing me!

Lord I offer up to You now my broken heart, please come and mend it
I offer to You my failing spirit, please come and revive it
I offer my racing mind, please come still it and fill it with Your thoughts!

I cannot see what else there is to offer You!

But yet my heart beats only for You

But yet my lungs thirst only for Your life-giving breath

But yet my bones stir only to receive Your marrow

But yet my eyes lift to the heavens

But yet my hand still moves to pour it out to You

But yet my voice cries for mercy from the only One who can possibly help!

Human compassion dries up, but You promise to never run dry

Human understanding ceases, but You promise me that tomorrow the sun will rise and I will see Your mercy and loving-kindness afresh

Human love is flawed, but You promise to be a father of endless compassion, unfailing mercy and unconditional love!

You promise me Your ways are just and true!

So soak me now in Your mercy and grace

Pour afresh over me Your unfailing love deep into my heart

Breathe into my lungs Your breath of life

Give me a new song

Give me new words of love

Give me new words of life and truth

May You fill my body with life

May You transform me

Come wipe my tears and kiss my forehead

Come take my hand and lift me up

Come swiftly my Mighty Conqueror

Psalm‬ ‭23:6‬: So why would I fear the future? For I’m being pursued only by Your goodness, beauty, mercy and unfailing love!I shall dwell forever, throughout all my days, in the house of God and in the glorious presence of the LORD. (AMP, MSG‬‬ & TPT paraphrased)

Bryan & Katie Torwalt – Let There Be Light ( YouTube Lyric Video)

Jesus Culture – Set Me Ablaze (Live/Lyrics And Chords) ft. Katie Torwalt – YouTube video

Lord Hear My Cry – YouTube Video

Slay The Terrifying Giant

A truly terrifying giant looms before you

He is a giant of old and you know him so well

He has taunted you for way too long

His horrifying laugh has been heard roaring loudly at your defeat

This giant has robbed you of so many things

This giant has denied you from reaching where you need to be

You MUST slay the giant and no longer be a slave to fear!

But you’re afraid and your confidence has departed you

You shake deep within your core at the mere thought of having to face him

But don’t lose heart!

You’re safe under the shelter of God’s wings!

You’re loved more than you can ever imagine

There is a HUGE reward for slaying the giant

You may feel unqualified to fight, but be brave

The LORD of Heaven’s Armies is with you!

Feel his courage flow through your veins!

Allow God to equip you

Then with your armour intact and your weapons at the ready


Step into the battlefield unafraid

Plant your feet deep into the Good News

Allow confidence to grow deep within

The battle has already been won!

By His Word it is done!

You are the victor!

Go now and claim your reward

Today the LORD will enable you to conquer the giant!

Burst forth with praise

Set your feet to dancing

Celebrate the victory and declare God’s goodness!

Francesca Battistelli- Giants Fall (Official YouTube Lyric Video)

Project Yesu

Photo Cred – Felix Russell-Saw

My Rollercoaster Week

I’m not really sure what to share and it all feels a bit disjointed but here is my heart for you this week……….. snippets of yet another roller coaster week….

Tuesday last week this was part of my day:

I had a 20 min screaming session as I drove from town….I was so fed up with the constant unending challenges…. I came home and had a prayer session that got LOUD….

Utterly exhausted I went to the beach to try and get some clarity and calm. As I sat there I was challenged to still my racing thoughts (and heart) and worship….

“Worship is an acknowledgement of God’s worth. Whether we are in the biggest loss of our life or the biggest victory, our response remains the same because His worth never changes.” Bill Johnson

I listened to worship music and wrote:

I sit by the water
I drink of You
I absorb Your life-giving water into my entire being
I rest in Your presence
I soak You in
I ignite Your freedom into my heart
I sing of Your love
I sing of Your grace
I sing of Your majesty
I sing of Your glory
Shine Your love on me
Send Your cleansing grace
Clothe me in Your majesty
Let me shine Your glory Lord

Sunday morning I was awake early and after a bit of a wrestle I finally made my way upstairs, reminding myself about being obedient. As I pushed myself up the stairs I thought how cool it would be to hear a kookaburra. As my foot hit the top stair I heard a familiar sound – the kookaburra singing loudly. I raced outside to try and capture it. As I stood on my deck hearing him laugh away I was reminded that in the midst of my storm I can laugh because if I have my eyes fixed on Jesus I’m assured victory!
1 Corinthians 15:57  “…thanks be to God, who gives us the victory [as conquerors] through our Lord Jesus Christ.” Amplified

I am promised to be able to laugh at my future (Proverbs 31) because I’m clothed in strength and dignity and God has a good and perfect plan for my life:
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”  New Living Translation

Then Tuesday this week was my teary day….right from the moment I awoke I felt fragile…..as I started to think about stuff I felt as if I was suffocating… I went into the study, played music and wrote:

Lord Please Revive Me
Lord my heart is heavy
Please lift it
My eyes leak with grief
Please catch each one
My worries race towards me like a thousand strong army
Lord please do not leave me to be consumed by them!
Lord this load is too heavy to carry
Please take it
I empty myself
Please come fill me
Lord I need Your words of truth and life to revive me

As I return to the kitchen my daily devotion verse is: “For you are my hiding place; you protect me from trouble. You surround me with songs of victory.” Psalms 32:7 NLT

I grabbed my phone to look up the verse and continued to read: “……..unfailing love surrounds those who trust the Lord. So rejoice in the Lord and be glad, all you who obey him! Shout for joy, all you whose hearts are pure!” Psalms 32:10b-11 NLT

The day was filled with constant moments of me fighting back tears, allowing them to leak or sobbing huge body racking tears!

After tea we watch a movie on Netflix called “Born To Win” based on the true heartbreaking story of Leon Terblanche who asked over and over again “Where is God?”.

As I watch it I feel as if a balm was being placed over my hurting, doubting, fainting, weak and tired heart. In a place of despair a friend of Leon’s comes up to him and recites Isaiah 40: “Look up into the heavens. Who created all the stars? He brings them out like an army, one after another, calling each by its name. Because of his great power and incomparable strength, not a single one is missing. O Jacob, how can you say the Lord does not see your troubles? O Israel, how can you say God ignores your rights? Have you never heard? Have you never understood? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of all the earth. He never grows weak or weary. No one can measure the depths of his understanding. He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion. But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:26-31 NLT

I cry out afresh to God to answer my pleas for mercy and bring the promised breakthrough!

I hang on for dear life to the One who is faithful to bring shalom to my chaos!!!

Wednesday (yesterday) I’m encouraged to read this verse: “So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up.” Galatians 6:9 NLT

Lord let me feel Your amazing grace surrounding me – the empowerment to overcome!!

Lord I ask that joy would spring forth in my heart so that I can be a person of peace in the midst of this chaos!

Many blessings!

WARNING!!!! Grab the tissues for this one: Hillsong United – Desert Song (the behind story) YouTube Clip

‘Mountain’ – Bryan & Katie Torwalt – Lyric YouTube clip

Worship In My Chaos inc ‘Enter The Gates’

God’s Peace In Chaos

Last week a dear friend spoke about the word Shalom and she described the word as bringing order to chaos. I loved that! I’ve done a little bit of study and here’s what I’ve found:

Some translations of Shalom according to Strong’s concordance: completeness, soundness, welfare, perfect peace, prosperity, safety, secure…

I haven’t read the full article but what I’ve quickly read seemed really good. Here is an extract and the link:

“Shalom speaks of personal peace, not merely referring to the absence of trouble or conflict, but positively of completeness, wholeness, contentment, welfare, health, prosperity, harmony, and fulfillment. Peace is one of the blessings that flow from a right relationship to God. Shalom is a term that includes all that makes life worthwhile.”

Peace-Shalom (Hebrew Word Study) full article


I went on search for peace beyond comprehension. I desperately need God’s order in the midst of my chaos!

  • I’ve researched the word Shalom
  • I have played worship songs almost non-stop
  • I’ve woken early to worship and watch the sunrise
  • I have prayed silently
  • I’ve prayed quietly
  • I have prayed LOUDLY with much force
  • I’ve searched the scriptures for comfort

“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4: 6-7 New Living Translation (NLT)

I believe that God is in the midst of the chaos all around me!

On Tuesday, as I drove up the hill from my home, I looked up at the clouds and I saw a very unusual pattern. The cloud had formed a handle type formation. I drove as quickly (and safely of course) to the top of the hill to take a photo. But by the time I arrived the cloud was starting to disappear and all that was left was a hook formation.


But then I was reminded that another dear friend had encouraged me, September last year, to be a hook between heaven and earth. This cloud formation spurred me on to be just that!

What is this ‘hook’ idea? Here’s some info for you:

The letter Vav is the sixth letter of the Aleph-Bet, and has the numeric value of six. The pictograph for Vav looks like a tent peg.  The placement of Vav in the Torah – Genesis 1:1 – implies a connection between spiritual matters and earthly matters. Since Vav represents the number six it is associated with man because we were created on the 6th day.

From all that I believe that we are to be the hook between heaven and earth. That our prayers can connect the Spirit with Earth.

I hope that this encourages you to lift your eyes to Heaven and press into God with confidence.

I pray that today you will feel God’s peace surround you. I ask Jesus to dress you in his thoughts of love and peace. I ask the Holy Spirit to surround you with comfort.

Many blessings


Celebration of the morning YouTube clip

Keri Weems blog titled “Bringing Order to Chaos: Shalom”

Bible Hub link in regards to Shalom

Link for more about Vav

Shout to the Lord (Revealing Jesus Project) – Darlene Zschech – YouTube Clip

It Is Good · Jonathan David & Melissa Helser – YouTube Clip

I Have Risen (with mini testimony) – Jonathan David Helser – YouTube Clip

Lifestyle Of Worship

To receive love, via my love language, is through words of affirmation and quality time – I love getting messages from people and I love spending time with people.

Guess what was robbed from me when I was sick? The ability to receive affirmation and the ability to spend time with people. My inability to receive God’s love was also distorted! I desperately tried to press into Him but there were many times when I just didn’t feel any connection!

A few months ago I felt a real desire to gift moments to God – set aside specific time regularly to spend it with Him. My love languages, ways I reveal my love, is gift giving and acts of service. I felt that I needed to enter into a space of reckless abandonment in my pursuit for more of God.

“As the deer longs for streams of water, so I long for you, O God.” Psalms 42:1 (NLT)

I was inspired to worship God wholeheartedly like David did, this is described in 2 Samuel 6:14: David danced before the Lord with all his might, with great enthusiasm and with great abandon! NLT, AMP & MSG paraphrased

Jehu Hernandez reflects on David and states: “Worship was giving his life completely to God and to God’s purposes.”

How inspiring and challenging is that!

“Through Him, therefore, let us at all times offer up to God a sacrifice of praise, which is the fruit of lips that thankfully acknowledge and confess and glorify His name.” Hebrews 13:15 Amplified

Sunday, the 7th of May, the sermon was about Mary and Martha! I’m so grateful God has taken me through this deep inner healing. I can boldly declare that striving and distractions are gone in my life! I am no longer a Martha – constantly too busy and distracted by life to engage with God at the level I need to!

Surely a lifestyle of worship should be my response for all that God has done, is doing and will do in my life! I am called to a life of worship because that’s how I’m created to be! I’m not part of the worship team at church, but I am a worshiper! Well how do I worship?

  • I Join creation in singing God’s praises in the morning!
  • I’ll put my earbuds in and play worship music while I clean. My family laugh at me as I make sounds even whales can’t recognize!
  • I’ll play worship music clips on our big tv.
  • I’ll soak in worship music while I write
  • I choose to gift God all I am and all I have!
  • I choose to worship Him in all I do!

God asked me to work on my confidence in Him – to lay down my self-confidence struggles. At first it was go to church early and worship God in His house – kneel, dance, pray through the building…… then it was to go to the beach and worship publicly – raise my hands and sing out loud. I’ve had some people walk past me as I do all this and at first I felt embarrassed! BUT Saturday the 6th of May, as I noticed people walking past, I didn’t feel embarrassed! I hoped that my passionate worship might be contagious and inspiring! As they walked past I blessed them (quietly to myself). It was such a transformation.

At the Majestic Women retreat, early May 2017, I danced – I haven’t been able to dance for ages due to energy issues. I felt prompted again Sunday 7th of May at church, at the end of the service, we went into a time of worship and were encouraged to lay it all down. I felt prompted to dance. As I started I declared: “I’m free to dance and free to sing!!!”. I then danced and sung about God’s freedom flowing like a river and falling like rain. I feel such a shift! Such a release in my life! Oh, I’m just bursting at the seams despite the fact that when I started writing this I was lying on the couch feeling utterly exhausted. I know God has started a HUGE mighty work!!!

In those moments of soaking in God I’m receiving love from God via my love languages – words of affirmation spring forth in my mind and I know God is engaging in spending the time with me! It’s truly astounding!

“I will thank you, Lord, among all the people. I will sing your praises among the nations.” Psalms 57:9 NLT

We are created in Gods image to rule over the earth. When we engage in worshiping God all of creation listens and responds! I hear the birds sing and it seems louder; I see the birds and insects draw near; I often have one or two birds visit with me; I feel the winds respond and a gentle breeze will blow across my face – even when no breeze was felt before!

There are times when it seems difficult to praise but Patricia King puts it all into perspective: “I sense the Lord saying, “Worship though your disappointments.” When you have questions because you do not know the answers, turn your questions into worship…worship in deep surrender and lay your unanswered questions on the altar. He will fill you…heal you…restore hope.”

“Since we are receiving our rights to an unshakable kingdom we should be extremely thankful and offer God the purest worship that delights his heart as we lay down our lives in absolute surrender, filled with awe.” Hebrews 12:28 The Passion Translation

“Never miss an opportunity to dance. Or a reason to laugh. Or a chance to love.” Linda Poindexter

The Passion Translation: “The Hebrew language has meaning attached to every letter, not just every word. Often, the meaning of the word is the combination of the meaning of each individual letter. For example, the Hebrew word for worship (shachah) means to bow down in adoration. It’s the combination of only three letters in Hebrew: shin-chet-hei.

Shin = fiery passion

Chet = joining with God in a secret place or bridal chamber

Hei = in the presence of God”
I’m dancing with exultation and sending you many blessings!


‘As the Deer Pants’ – Chris & Jennie Orange – lyrics YouTube clip

‘Beautiful Heart’ – Zions Hill & Carolyn Billings -lyrics YouTube clip

‘You have ravished my heart’ – Brian & Jen Johnson – lyrics YouTube clip

‘Resurrecting’ – Elevation Worship – lyrics YouTube clip

Jehu Hernandez complete blog

More about Linda Poindexter

Messy Motherhood

“Being a parent is like folding a fitted sheet. Nobody really knows how to do it properly, we all just wing it.” Posted by: Me.Me – Mum’s grapevine

When folding a fitted sheet my brain says: “I’ll match the corners and then fold here, then here and it’ll be great…….oh it doesn’t matter! It’s clean and it’s in the shelf!”. When it comes to parenting, I have to remind myself: “I love them, they’re alive, so I’m doing great!”.

Having 2 kids 20 months apart was pretty full on to say the least. It was one of the most physically, emotionally and mentally challenging seasons of my life. The chores were unending and constantly overwhelming. The lack of sleep was soul destroying. The constant demands threatened my sanity!

“Parenting is logically complicated, theologically enlightening, and sometimes a bit psychologically destroying.” Ann Voskamp states in her book ‘The Broken Way’.

My dream of being a mum had come true but it was far from the fairy-tale existence I had dreamt up! Others around me made it seem so easy. There is a term so widely used: “you’re such a natural at this!” and I felt far from that! Somehow God did give me the instincts I needed for each child. They were very different right from the start so what had worked for my first child did not always work for my second. It was a constant game of guess and elimination. This ‘game’ continues and escalates into the teen years!

“Motherhood is a daily decision to paint the ordinary moments of our days with the extraordinary love of Christ.” Alicia Bruxvoort

Love is seen in the trying:

  • Trying to say the right things, but feeling like I’ve said too little or too much.
  • Trying to finish work early for that sporting event, but arriving just moments too late.
  • Trying to stay awake to make sure they arrive home safe, but desperately longing for sleep.
  • Trying to cook a meal, but longing to sit on the couch and cry.

But what if the ‘not enough’ is just a lie? AND in fact our efforts, when combined with what God can do, are more than enough!!!!

“Remember: even the smallest drop of God’s strength is more than enough to cover our frailties, our shortcomings, and the places where we deem ourselves weak.” Lysa TerKeurst

What if this is really what love is and looks like:

“Real love dares you to the really dangerous: die in the diminutive. Be broken and given in the small, the moments so small no one may applaud at all. Pour out your life in the laundry rooms and over toilets and tubs, pour out life on the back streets, in the back of the room, back behind the big lights. Pour out your life in small moments – because it’s only these moments that add up to the monumental. The only way to live a truly remarkable life is not to get everyone to notice you, but to leave noticeable marks of His love everywhere you go.” Ann Voskamp

In the tough times I’m constantly reminding myself that my kids are an awesome gift from the Lord; they are a reward from him; they are God’s love-gift; they are heaven’s generous reward. Happy will be the couple who has many of them! Children are like arrows in a warrior’s hands, how joyful is the man whose quiver is full! Your children will have influence and honour to prevail on your behalf so you will never be put to shame!   Psalm 127:3-5 (New Living Translation and The Passion Translation paraphrased)

“He offers me grace, everyday grace, to fill in the gaps of my failures.” Leigh Ann Dutton

Would I change any of those heart-in-my-throat days? In a heartbeat, I’d go back and correct all that I’d done wrong. But I can’t. What I can do is ask for forgiveness for my failings and trust that God’s amazing grace can heal every wrong! I can learn from the past and press forward stronger and wiser than before. Daily seeking God to make me the mother my kids need for this day; this season; this challenge…..
I can rejoice in the now! Truly live the moment and embrace all the goodness it brings.

“The thread of your life becomes a tapestry of abundant colors only if it ties itself to other lives. The only way to strengthen the fabric of society is to let threads of your life break away to let Christ, who is in us, weave around other threads.” Ann Voskamp

My life can become a beautiful tapestry as I weave my life into my family. As we interweave our lives a beautiful family tapestry unfolds!

I’m no longer holding to the label good or bad, instead I’m holding to being an ENDEAVOUR MUM – I’m committed to doing the very best I possibly can, trusting God’s love is big enough to change me; trusting God’s grace is big enough to fill the gaps; and trusting God’s strength is more than enough!

“Real love is in the really small gestures – the way your hands, your feet, move to speak your heart. The way you slow and look right into the eyes of a child every time she speaks so they feel seen and known and safe.” Ann Voskamp

“If you are a mother of any kind, then you are a leader, so wield your influence well.” Sharon Hodde Miller

To my mum and mother-in-law THANK YOU for investing in me! For my grandmothers who are in heaven I am so grateful for the legacy you have left behind. To my sisters, aunts and friends who constantly inspire me to be the mum God wants me to be – THANK YOU!!!

To all the mums out there I say “you’re doing a great job, keep at it!”.

Have a truly special Mother’s Day!

Many, many blessings!

Leigh Ann Dutton’s Motherhood blog

‘The Broken Way: A Daring Path Into the Abundant Life’ by Ann Voskamp – Koorong link

This song has a mini motherhood testimony, enjoy: ‘The Pressure’s Off’ (spontaneous) – Melissa Helser -Bethel Music – YouTube clip

A few power ballads seem appropriate: ‘A Mother’s Love’ – Jim Brickman – YouTube Lyrics clip

‘Mama’ – Spice Girls – YouTube clip

I Turn To You – Christina Aguilera – YouTube clip


Love Songs To Heaven

Lord God may my prayers be as love letters to You
May my praise be a love song to Heaven, a sweet incense that fills Your throne room
As You bask in the sweet aroma and read each one I pray they fill Your heart with love, for You fill my heart to overflowing with Your extravagant love for me!

Oh Find Me Lord!
Find me singin’ my song of gratitude
Find me filling my life with more of You
Find me speaking of Your love
Find me showing Your mercy
Find me filled with Your grace
Find me dancing in Your joy
Find me swaying in Your arms
Find me pouring out my life
Find me calling on Your name
Find me restoring hope
Find me refreshing lives
Find me filled with Your power to enable me to do Your amazing works
Find me lord
Please find me lord
Find me singin’ of Your love
Find me singin’ of Your grace
Find me singin’ of Your mercy
Find me singin’ of Your hope
Find me filled with Your love
Find me filled with Your grace
Find me lord
Oh find me lord!
Find me singin’ in gratitude
For you’ve changed my whole attitude
Find me singin’ my song of gratitude
Find me so thankful, for all You’ve done for me
Find me so grateful, for all You pour out on me
Your love
Your mercy
And Your grace
Your miracles I will see
Your wonder You will display
Fill me with Your glory
Fill me with Your grace
Oh my Lord You are so good, so good to me!!!

‘The Stand’ – by Hillsong – YouTube clip

‘Find Me’ // Official Lyric Video // Jonathan & Melissa Helser

Time Is

As I journey through my inner healing season I feel like I’m embarking on a new adventure! Entering into a new beginning!

I feel such gratitude that I am given the opportunity to be made whole. I feel thankful for what will unfold.

As Bill Johnson states: “I owe the world a spirit-filled life, for I owe them an encounter with God. Without the fullness of the Holy Spirit in and upon me, I do not give God a surrendered vessel to flow through.”.

During my illness I couldn’t grasp onto and cherish time, it felt as if days dragged by. Sleeping during the day upset my body clock and sometimes I would feel as if I had lived 2 days in the 1.

As I watched the movie “Collateral Beauty” I was impacted by how precious time truly is and I started to reflect on what time is:

Time can rob and destroy
Time can restore and rebuild
Time can be measured
Time can be gifted
Time divides
Time reunites
Time lingers
Time stops
Time races by
Time is a gift
Do I treasure mine?
Do I grasp the moment?
Time is a currency
How do I spend mine?
Is time treasured or simply something I allow to pass?
If my timing is truly in Your hands, my Lord, why is it so hard to wait?
You have seen me in the secret place, Your eyes gazed upon my unformed substance! In Your book is written the days assigned to me, as is declared in Psalm 139:16
Will there come a day when I beg for more time.
Will I long to touch just one more life and see one more miracle unfold?

I love what Ann Voskamp says about time in her book The Broken Way: “For Jesus, time was not something you seize as much as something you sacrifice. It’s not something to grab; it’s something to give. Time can’t dictate dreams or hijack hope or determine destination. It can’t force us into living anything but what we believe. Time never heals wounds like God does.”

As I pack my bags to attend my second Majestic Women Retreat, I have such an expectation. I believe that as I set aside this time away to spend it with God, it will reap amazingly wonderful astonishing things in my life. As I gift God my time I know it’s in safe hands!

I pray that this weekend you can set aside some time to sit and reflect upon your life and the precious gift of time that has been given to you.

Many Blessings!

‘From The Inside Out’ – Hillsong – YouTube clip

‘Not One Time’ (Spontaneous Worship) – Steffany Gretzinger | Bethel Music – YouTube clip

‘Likeness Of Jesus’ – Jonathan David Helser – YouTube clip

‘At All Times’ (Spontaneous Worship) – Steffany Gretzinger | Bethel Music – YouTube clip

Pic Cred – Rachael Crowe

‘The Broken Way: A Daring Path Into the Abundant Life’ – by Ann Voskamp – Koorong link

Mercy Mercy We Cry

Why the delay in sharing this? Because I have been full of fear; doubt; and feebleness.

So why share it now? Ann Voskamp, in her book ‘The Broken Way’, reminded me that: “God believes in me. Christ in me makes me enough. I have more and become more, the more I pour out.” So I take hold of that and believe God loves me so outrageously that fear; doubt; and feebleness are being defeated in my life!

On the 30th of October 2016 Pastor Mark Ireland preached on mercy. As I processed just what that means for me I heard a headline on the tv news:

“Manus Island, Nauru refugees to be banned from entering Australia, Malcolm Turnbull says”.

Now I am forced to be brutally honest! The refugee situation is something I’ve been greatly confused and conflicted about. I feared what it would look like to have many refugees enter in. I feared so many things.

But I can no longer ‘put my head in the sand’. It is simply no longer an option! I am no longer a slave to fear! I boldly walk forth in all God has called me to be.

I truly believe that there is a solution! There is a way forward! I believe that as the desperate cry out for mercy we have no other option but to respond with grace and love!


  1. The Well it’s in our national anthem:

Beneath our radiant southern Cross,
We’ll toil with hearts and hands;
To make this Commonwealth of ours
Renowned of all the lands;
For those who’ve come across the seas
We’ve boundless plains to share
With courage let us all combine
To advance Australia fair.
In joyful strains then let us sing
“Advance Australia fair!” 

While other nations of the globe
Behold us from afar,
We’ll rise to high renown and shine
Like our glorious southern star
From England, Scotia, Erin’s Isle,
Who come our lot to share,
Let all combine with heart and hand
To advance Australia fair!
In joyful strains then let us sing

“Advance Australia fair!” 

  1. It is biblical

We are urged to speak for those who cannot speak for themselves and defend the rights of the poor and the needy – Proverbs 31:8-9

Job 4:8 warns us: “my experience shows that those who plant trouble and cultivate evil will harvest the same.”  New Living Translation (NLT)

Galatians 6:7 confirms this warning:  “don’t be misled—you cannot mock the justice of God. You will always harvest what you plant.”  (NLT)

But there is also solutions contained in the bible:

“So whatever you say or whatever you do, remember that you will be judged by the law that sets you free. There will be no mercy for those who have not shown mercy to others. But if you have been merciful, God will be merciful when he judges you.

Suppose you see a brother or sister who has no food or clothing, and you say, “Good-bye and have a good day; stay warm and eat well”—but then you don’t give that person any food or clothing. What good does that do?

You see, his faith and his actions worked together. His actions made his faith complete.”

James 2:12-13, 15-16, 22 (NLT)

“God blesses those who are merciful, for they will be shown mercy.” Matthew 5:7 (NLT)

“Give, and it will be given to you. You will have more than enough. It can be pushed down and shaken together and it will still run over as it is given to you. The way you give to others is the way you will receive in return.” Luke 6:38 New Life Version (NLV)

Let’s become a generous nation! Let’s walk in all God calls us to!

  1. Good News!

There is another way! There is a person of great faith that has a solution! Something not thought of before! Something beyond comprehension! I know there is someone with a well thought out plan, researched data and spreadsheets. I know that someone has a clever and compassionate strategy!

Let us reveal the heart of God to these people! Psalm 68:5-6 declares that God is a father to orphans – He is Father to the fatherless, and He defends the widows – a Champion for them even! God places the lonely in families; he sets the prisoners free and gives them joy! (NCV, MSG & NLT paraphrased)

May we as a nation rise up to defend those weak and afraid!

May we remind those who feel forgotten that God is their loving Father in heaven.

God has heard their cries for mercy and responds!

He urges us to be His ambassadors, to show His love and mercy to the poorest of the poor.

God wants to turn mourning into joy!

God wants to turn fear into hope!

We cannot ignore this!

We cannot sit and do nothing!

Mercy we must become!

Compassion we must reveal!

We need not fear, for those who come with wrong intentions will be transformed!

Hate will become love as we extend God’s grace!

Lord God calls us a new to life! Even better than that He calls all to an abundant life! A life that will overflow with His goodness and grace! If we allow His power to work through us we can accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think! This is promised in John 10:10 & Ephesians 3:20

Cry out!

God has something new! It will transform lives! It will transform this state! It will transform this nation!

It begins with mercy! It begins with grace! It begins with generosity!

So arise – deep cries out to deep!

Let’s take on a new disposition, a new state of mind; let us incline our ears to their cries for mercy!

Let us show them compassion, refrain from passing judgment!

Let’s extend acts of kindness, compassion and favour!

Let us reach out in faith to touch the lives of the lost; the broken hearted; the displaced…. the solution that Australia designs will be a model, an example, to the rest of the world!

“How we walk with the broken speaks louder than how we sit with the great.” Bill Bennot

Test this word:

“See that no one pays back evil for evil, but always try to do good to each other and to all people. Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus. Do not stifle the Holy Spirit. Do not scoff at prophecies, but test everything that is said. Hold on to what is good.” 1 Thessalonians 5:15-21 (NLT)

Again, I say test this word! Ask God to reveal to you His great plan for your life in this. Seek and ask the Holy Spirit to reveal your part to play.

“Australia needs to be open to the world, not turn inwards in troubled times” Tim Costello

Love Alone Is Worth the Fight (acoustic) Switchfoot cover- Lauren Daigle – YouTube clip

Love Broke Thru – TobyMac – YouTube clip

Tim Costello’s article

Pic cred Will Milne