The past 3 years have been truly horrendous, confronting, frustrating, confusing….. I’ve desperately searched for true supporters – people who can:
- meet me where I’m at
- acknowledge what’s happening
- help me to try and make sense of things
- address or help me let go of the burdens
- reveal strategies forward
- provide prayerful support
- stick with me to see the victory come to pass
Recently I’ve had events that have rocked me. I had 2 confusing and hurtful interactions with medical professionals. After the first event, I felt the shock starting to set in and I stood on the pavement and declared: “God that door has slammed in my face, BUT I trust that You’ve closed that door for a reason and so once again I’ll place my trust in You!”.
As I processed that incident another one, less than a week later, had me in a state of despair feeling ‘attacked’ for no reason! I felt ‘kicked’ when I was ‘down for the count’!
I am so grateful for a loving constantly supportive husband and family who have stood by me and helped me so much. BUT the weeks after those incidents I’ve been unable to connect face to face with my 2 sources of group prayer support. As I struggled with the feelings of isolation and loneliness I delved into the study of Jehovah Nissi.
This description of God is found in Exodus 17: The Israelites were under attack by warriors of Amalek. Moses commanded Joshua to go and fight them, promising that he would stand on top of the hill holding the staff of God in his hand. When Moses had his arms raised the Israelites had the advantage but whenever he dropped his hand the Amalekites gained the advantage. As the battle raged on poor Moses grew exhausted. Aaron and Hur came along and sat Moses on a stone and then stood each side of him to hold up his arms. This enabled them to endure until sunset. The result was that Joshua and the Israelites were victorious. To mark this event “Moses built an altar there and named it Yahweh-Nissi (which means “the Lord is my banner”).” Exodus 17:15 NLT
What a powerful testimony of partnership with God as well as others. This study has reminded me that God is mighty! God is by my side. As I wrote this a deep realisation sunk into my soul that GOD IS MY TRUE SUPPORTER – He is the One who has been there through it all.
God’s banner of love; mercy; grace; healing; restoration; transformation; and victory is over me!
God is calling me forth unafraid for He will strengthen me for the battle.
God is calling me to be bold because He is so much bigger than my current circumstances.
Jesus’ extravagant sacrifice for me started on the cross and then extended to my salvation and my healing. So I shouldn’t be surprised when it extends to the promised victory!
For I’m promised that in the days to come “….no weapon turned against you will succeed. You will silence every voice raised up to accuse you. These benefits are enjoyed by the servants of the Lord; their vindication will come from me. I, the Lord, have spoken!” Isaiah 54:17 NLT
How cool is that!!
My prayer: So right now Lord I ask for forgiveness over my unbelief! Grow my faith. I’ve prayed so many wonderful promises, now I move my heart to receive them as REALITY. I declare Your banner over me IS love; grace; mercy; victory; and provision! Lord I breathe into reality Your promises for me! I step out in faith towards ALL You call me to!!! All Your promises ARE YES and AMEN. Lord let Your will be done!
“May God give you every desire of your heart and carry out your every plan as you go into battle. When you succeed, we will celebrate and shout for joy. Flags will fly when victory is yours! Yes, God will answer your prayers and we will praise Him!” Psalms 20:4-5 The Passion Translation